Dear dad,I don't completely understand the driving force behind what I have been working on.I'd been obsessed with the idea of war for the three or four years, often dreaming extremely violent dreams centered around the theme of destruction. I believe now that my concern with death on a mass scale was intimately tied into my personal life.
Carl Jung has suggested that all personal problems are relevant to society and that any sufficiently profound solution to a personal problem may if communicated reduce the likelihood of that problem existing in anyone else's experience in the future.
I had the notion that confronting what terrified me,what turned my dreams against me could help me withstand that terrible thing.This idea allowed me to believe that I could find what I most wanted if I was willing to follow whatever it led me ,knowing somehow that once started,an aborted attempt would destroy at least my self-respect,at most my sanity.